I am Honoring my brother Connor who lost his life to suicide at the age of 25. Now that I have surpassed my older brothers age it feels more surreal that the next time I see his smiling face will be in Heaven. In my eyes I had always known Connor to struggle with mental health and addiction. For so many years my parents and family had done literally all they could to try and help Connor and they never stopped. Even though Connor had many demons he struggled with, he also brought SO much light into every room with his goofy laugh, sarcastic sense of humor and endless capacity for loving and helping others- especially others struggling with EXACTLY what he struggled with. I struggle with feeling guilty as new wonderfully joyous things happen in my life and my family’s but then I just remember Connor would not want us to be sad. He would not want us to feel guilty. He would want us to celebrate and give thanks to God for these wonderful new life moments! The Honor Connor organization and The Honor Project has allowed my family to truly honor my brother every minute , every day for endless years to come. I love you Connor and I know how proud you would be to see your mission and your dreams come to life through YOU with Honor Connor!